There have been times that I have just known certain things. Like I knew that I was pregnant. I knew deep in my heart Annie wasn’t coming home. I knew that my best friend and sister-in-law were pregnant before they knew/told anyone. I knew I wanted to marry my husband just a couple months after dating. I knew I wanted to adopt, even as a little girl. There are a lot of things I have just known.
But there is a lot that I don’t know. When I will hold a child in my arms that is legally mine? How many children I will be mommy to? If I will ever give birth to a child? Will the ministry we have at the church we are at be successful? Will Amelia bond with us easily? Will we be able to afford plane tickets? On and on it goes. There are so many things that are unsure but I (try) not to dwell on those things. I try to trust and give it up. Sometimes it is hard, sometimes it is easier.
Right now I would have to say I am somewhere in-between.