Yup, it’s a song lyric kind of day. I don’t know how else to show you guys my heart today. Sorry. If you don’t want to read the lyrics you could just go to youtube and listen to it. This song has been breaking my heart the past couple of days.
We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we’d have faith to believe
‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise
-Laura Story “Blessings”
These are just some excerpts from the song. This has really been my heart the past couple weeks. Trusting the bigger picture is beautiful.
As most of you know, over the past twelve months or so we have; had a miscarriage, had one domestic adoption fall through, one international adoption fall through, and we have one international adoption that is in the process of falling through.
Don’t read this as some kind of pity party please. That isn’t it at all. I just want our lives, our journey to be a testimony of God faithfulness. I don’t mean once everything is wrapped up in a nice bow just the way we want it after we finally have a baby in our arms. I mean now. In the hard, confusing times. He is faithful!
Does it sound like I have it all figured out? I hope not. If only you knew. This lady talking about faith in God’s timing is the same broken lady who started crying right in the middle of the baby section at Walmart today.
I don’t know how our journey to parenthood will look at the end but I do know that I am ready to find out.